Dear blog #9 - The little things

Another chatty post from me today.

Progress is slow but has been made, we have bought some furniture from IKEA and have started the process of organising our new room. We have bedside tables, rails for clothes, a chest of drawers and a desk. next we need storage for actual stuff - like books, dvds, games etc. I think we are going to try and get it all sorted this month try and not hang about too long with the place looking like a bombsite - but we will see.

With everything a bit more organised I feel like I can breathe a bit easier, I have done the whole living out of bags and boxes too many times before and it drives me crackers! One thing I am really happy I have set up, even if it not in it's permanent home is my turntable.

It is something I got from my parents for my birthday last year and I adore it. Excuse the mess underneath the table. we still have a few bags. 

My darling Boyf got me the Fleetwood Mac album - Rumours which is one of my favourites and has all of my favourite Fleetwood Mac songs on. I listened to it while doing some extra sorting - it was very therapeutic!

After feeling a bit calmer and a bit more relaxed more drama has occurred which left me exhausted. I didn't sleep well at all last night and I am hoping tonight won't be the same. A lot of things keep happening and it kind of feeling like I am going round in circles with some people. Hopefully, in the next few weeks everything will sort itself out. I am stronger than I was a few months ago, and coping so much better - I just don't want to take a step backwards.

I am still off my anti-depressants haven't been on them for quite a while now (haven't kept track exactly but feels like a lifetime ago). I still feel like myself but I can tell I have a lot less patience with people. I used to be a doormat for anyone and everyone, I have now found a backbone but sometimes feel like I am a bit too harsh. It could just be me over-thinking things - as I do so well but I don't want to hurt the people close to me. reerk

Here's to being on the up!

xo